Well…
It’s the new year. 2009. The year of the First Black President! The year of the Depression (oops, i mean ‘recession’), and hopefully a better year than ‘08.
2008 sucked for me. I lost my job in early ‘07 and barely limped through the year struggling with odd jobs and unemployment insurance. You know it’s bad when you send out around 50-60 resumes a week and average a return of 1 to 2 phone-calls. I understand we’re all in a bad place and everyone’s under the same sh!t, but you take a hit to gut when you don’t even warrant interest from jobs that you’re highly overqualified for. Sucks.
My mother resumed her battle with Cancer, which was just as scary as it was more than a decade ago. And I was stuck here in San Francisco with no money or resources to fly down to Los Angeles to visit her. Thank God my family’s the kind that mobilizes in a crisis, even if they’re not on speaking terms. I feel so disconnected from my family these days. I feel I only have enough strength to focus on me and my wife keeping our heads above water. Some things have to slip and we all make scary decisions along the way.
I’ve spent the majority of this year helping my wife with her food business. “Help” translated into washing dishes and doing food deliveries everyday. I’m not one to complain. I loved the fact that I was helping her out. She’s a strong one. I don’t know how she functioned doing it all on her own.
And then, just when things couldn’t get any worse, we lost our delivery van, which was the one thing that was keeping us on top of your business game. Afterwards, we had to get up around 4:00am to take public transportation to our kitchen, and i’d do the actual deliveries on foot, walking maybe 2-4 miles each day through San Francisco with a big box of meat and veggie pies. The walk was crazy at first, but three months later and 20 pounds lighter, it’s not that bad.
But some good things came out of 2008 also. I got the writing bug back and started the novel i’ve been waiting to write for almost a decade. I got a new found passion for online music and keep the fires burning for flowink.com, while my partners took a leave of absence to handle personal and professional business. I got to reconnect with one of my closest friends, after we had a falling out a few years back. And there’s the hope of two possible job opportunities on the horizon.
I woke up this morning to a house in shambles. One New Years Eve, my wife the the ‘cleaning’ bug and started tearing the house apart. She said she wanted us to restart our living situation. She wanted to treat the ’spring cleaning’ as if we were moving into a new home. As I sit now writing this, we’re about 60% finished on the ‘move in’. She’s on the couch next to me taking a long deserved nap and I decided to act on one of my New Years Resolutions: Blogging more. A lot of people use to love the ‘rants’ that I wrote monthly. I think it’s time to get back to basics.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS:
01. MORE BLOGGING. (AND SPELLL CHECKK.. I MEAN SPELL CHECK)
02. MORE WRITING.
03. MORE MUSIC (FLOWINK AND BIG LA VS. TODD)
04. RECONNECT WITH OLD FRIENDS (GET MY SWAGGER BACK)
05. CREATE A LIFE AND LOVE WORTHY OF MY WIFE.
06. DO THE STUFF I LOVE, REGARDLESS OF WHAT OTHERS THINK (GAMING, COMICS…)
07. GO OUT MORE (STAYING INSIDE IS A SAD EXISTENCE. CAN’T LET THE WORLD PASS YOU BY)
08. SAVE MONEY (CIRCUMSTANCES BURNED ALL MY SAVINGS THIS YEAR. TIME TO REBUILD)
09. SAVE LIFE (HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE + HIGH CHOLESTEROL + BLACK MALE = THE GRAVE)
10. TELL MY MOMMA I LOVE HER MORE
